Thanks for acting like you care

I don't know who to believe.
How are you supposed to know if someone cares about you FOR REAL?
Because Ive had friends where, it comes to a certain time where I really
do love them. And all of a sudden its like...
"Nevermind. Lets pretend we were never friends, that we never talked. Bye."
I hate loosing people like that.
And it makes me so aware of the people around me.
I don't want anyone else to just get up and leave at any given moment.
I want to be there for as many of my friends as possible.
No matter how many mistakes they have made.
I want to be the person they go to when they are having problems.
I want to be the person they go to when they have a secret that they need to share.
I want to be the person that they can rely on for anything.
But...I was thinking about it.
If I want all of those things, I think that I need to win this battle that I've been fighting.
Lately, I've just felt really under fire. (Ironic isn't it?)
I've been really battling everything around me.
No one can tell on the outside, but It's been pretty difficult so far.
I think I'm winning.