Beauty

While I was doing my makeup this morning, I had a thought. 

'I wonder what I would look like with one half of my face done, and the other half bare.' So I did it, thinking 'this bare part of my face is going to look terrible, man I'll be a sight to see.' Then I stopped myself....what?!? What the hell? Is that what I think of myself? And I thought,

'I wish I beautiful.'

Beauty. Why is it something we strive towards everyday? It's just so hard to see yourself and say, "you know what, I am beautiful." 

Not to be arrogant.

Not for other people.

For yourself.

To be able to look in the mirror on a day when you wake up late and wear whatever you can find on your floor and be able to say, "I'm beautiful." Or to dress up and do your hair different and be able to say, "I'm beautiful."

The word beauty has been so jaded by our society. We see it as a status that we have to earn, a goal to achieve. Something that will make us better. 

"Does he think I'm pretty?"

"Am I pretty enough?"

"My makeup looks bad today."

"She's prettier than me."

"Is this too much?"

Stop.

Stop stop stop stop stop.

You ARE beautiful.

You just are. 

I know, it's so hard to say that in our society, but it's something to strive towards. To be able to see ourselves in a different light. 

Not thinking that one half is better than the other. But that together, that's MY face. My own face, it's me. I'm unique, and that's beautiful.

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I'm heading to Malawi, South Africa next month and I would really like you're thoughts and prayers!
And if you can, you can donate to my mission trip through this link as well.
Thank you!! :)

Feeling without a body is like breathing without lungs.

My helpful quote for the day

I'm leaving everything I know in less than a week. I sure hope college is a blast.

"If you're feeling frightened about what comes next, don't be.

Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places.

Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart

and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness,

don't waste time with regret. And if you should ever look up

and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over.

Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart...

where your hope lives. You'll find your way again."

-Gilmore Girls

About 7 months now.

It's a very strange feeling, knowing that almost everything in your life is going to completely change in the next 7 months. I won't be with my family all the time. I'm moving away from all of my friends, my church. No more high school. (Thank you Jesus.) It's just weird to know that you're gonna have to make big decisions that will make a huge impact on the rest of your life.
I'm really excited, but really scared.

Almost Christmas!

Winter break is so nice.
I just love Christmas time.

A...Poem?

So this is a poem I wrote that follows absolutely
no pattern at all. haha. It's just random thoughts
all jumbled up into this...thing. :)

A cherished gift,
Grasped tightly with both hands,
Wishing never to let go.
Then everything turns,
The places reversed,
Rust meets sapphire.
It is all understood,
Words are not necessary,
Necessity is intertwining,
Inner-most passion,
However, intensity is not normality.

The balance is shifting,
You're forced to lose control.
Vulnerability is not easily let go.
The thoughtful release of sought out answers.
We want to know, yet afraid of our own judgments.
Fingertips touch, shocked by emotion.
Silence is no longer self-defense.